siti. sabariyah.
26.12.1987
popular sanguine + peaceful phlegmatic

i can't show you what i mean so i'll just write it out
parents, irritatin. it goes w e territory. n if u were to judge, on a scale of 1 - 10, 1 being e most irritatin n 10 bein e least, my parents, ey'll b at -0. doesnt apply much to my dad but 4 my mum, she's tt. no doubt.
ok 4gt bt irritatin- ness. lets tok abt nt bein understandin. my mum, she's worst wen it cums to tt topic. gawd. i dun understand her most of e time. i wonder sumtimes does she even noe how to at e 1st place. i tink she's too caught up w e fact tt she MUST win in everytink n tt wateva it is, she'll always b rite. ALWAYS. no matter how very wrong she is. she dun frickin care bt wat u tink. she dun even want to hear 1 word of it. to her, to even attempt, is a sign of rudeness. scream at e top of ur lungs to compete w her volume to gt ur point across n she'll outdo u. cry ur eyes out while doin tis if u dare. she'll make sure u'll b very sori. n if u still tink u haf sum chances left on winnin, 4gt it. she'll sae hurtful words n do tinks 2 threaten u 2 gif up. believe me, u wudnt want to noe wat.
n e war goes on until u simply haf to surrender coz ur tooo tired or dissapointed or angry at e fact tt my mum's juz lyk tt. n where's my dad wen all tis is in motion u might ask. he'll b there glarin at e wrg party, in most cases its my mum, n will juz keep quiet. onli if e matter gets out of hand will his boomin voice be heard.
pardon me. im nt tryin to make it sound lyk my mum is sum undescriable mum w tt even more undescriable attitude but tts her. she may cum out as a sportin, fun-lovin mum to all of our frenz but all of u r actuali misled. she's e complete opposite. worst den alter-ego. bt sampai bile nk asyik cam ni? kepale ku pusing sik pikirkan hari2. y muz she always b lyk tis? she neva unlearn n re-learn. tts y she dun progress. but y? susah sgt ke jadi humble sumtimes? tak kan. GAWD.
my tearful nites tis past few daes r all cause of her. plus i mish my boify too. i seriously dunnoe wat 2 do.

as 4 starters, my mum quit her job months ago. basically e reason was to stay home n further fulfill her role as a mum. she'll b there to cook, gt e house in order n be there for sakura. PFFT~ or so she tink n sae. but she forget abt e fact tt she haf 1/2 of e responsibilities waitin 4 her tt needed prompt attention. n i noe its suppose to be my dad's wen it cums to all tis but she's been helpin all tis while. she cudnt juz let go of eveytink n let my dad handle it alone. at least wait till my elder sis n me r more settled in our full time job to even delegate it all to us.
n tis past few daes, anytink n everytink r all nt rite to her. there'll be more rollin eyes, hyperventilatin behind closed doors n screamin as e daes past. but i juz dun understand her. she's there e whole dae at home n wat does she ever do?? nothin. e house gets messier n messier by e hrs. all thanx to her most beloved daughter, our lil sis, e brat. tt gal, she's spoiled to e core by none other den her. n wen we all reach home, tired frm e dae's work, she'll be screamin n naggin our ears out on e fact tt no 1 started e cleanin. BUT WAT IS SHE DOIN E WHOLE DAE AT HOME?! she doesnt clean. havent started makin e kuehs. nothing. and she cant possibly xpect us to drop everytink n do wateva tt needs to be done once we reach home. she cant wait for me to start makin e kuehs. n cook for e family. i will b too tired. n even wen i did, ade aje yg tak kene. "kueh kau pucat ah. letak colourin ah.(u cant do tt nnt kueh keras, DUH!) asal masak minyak sikit. asal api kecik." asal tu asal ni. jgn buat gtu. jgn buat gini. EH KALAU CAKAP BANYAK SGT, DUN ASK ME TO DO IT AT E 1ST PLACE. DO EVERYTINK URSELF SO TT U'LL BE SATISFIED. N NOT WORI WHETHER I'LL B BURNIN E FRICKING HOUSE DOWN!! OR WORRY N I PUTTIN IN OTHER TINKS TT R NT SUPPOSE TO BE IN!! *HYPERVENTILATIN* i dun mean to be rude or complain but seriously org semua penat kan. ingat tak penat ke. to be on ur feet frm 8-5 n onli gettin my well deserved break onli wen everytink's settled. in most cases tt'll be ard 1+ 2. to sit infront of e comp all office hrs n to be in skul till 6 everydae cz 2nd major exam's round e corner. plus we r fastin. nt tt we dun want to help. den wat abt her part?? wat is she frickin doin at home?! can she juz ans me tt minus all e shoutin n hyperventilatin. seriously.
n she keep sayin we dun lyk sakura coz everydae every1's raisin their voice at her. but we cant help it. nth gts into tt brat's head. she's nt even scared of our dad. ape tah lagi kite. jgn ckp sal mak lah. tt is so out of e topic. sakura wun be lyk tis if mak didnt spoil her at e 1st place. its either tt or she'll be sayin " kalau korang dah tak suke tinggal ngan mak, kluar.mentang2 da pandai cari hasil." *hyperventilate* sakit hati + sedih kan to hear ur own mum sae tt. im on e verge of hatin her.
n seriously i dun haf e mood to raye tis yr. there's far too many tinks tt needs my attention rather den enjoyin myself on tt glorious dae. n u noe there were daes i tot i cud just run away frm home , lyk wat she said, n escape frm all tis. bt i wun haf anywhere to go. ok la duit bole cari but i wun haf anywhere to go. no, i certainly cant do tt. tts so out of e qns. do tt n face e consequences later? nvm i'll pass. god noes wat she'll do to u.
so can sumone pls throw me a reason. y is my mum lyk tis? can i juz haf a mum hu's understandin n supportive. 1 hu cud sit dwn n tok tinks out w n bein able to compromise.

i fully intend to be the one you'll be spending the rest of your life with.
hapi 3rd boify!! =o) i love you w all my heart. always. missing u badly. kalau la i cud run away n go to u, heaven~ but haiz. n u pass ur rifle handlin test. woohoo b~ 5/53? wow no bad no bad feeweet. hehe. i luv u la! alot alot. XOXOXO