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26.12.1987 popular sanguine + peaceful phlegmatic |
i, may be your treasure or the price you ve to pay. may be your why or wherefore within the measure of a day.
its funny, but have you noticed that the more special something is, the more people seem to take it for granted?
Thursday, January 31, 2008/ 11:22 AM
its funny, but have you noticed that the more special something is, the more people seem to take it for granted? its like they thing it wont ever change.
do i eva tink abt my maternal grandma? sumtimes. weneva i cum across pts hu look lyk her or those hu suffered frm stroke. or weneva i cum across houses tts very well stockd. n wen i do, i remember her sittin on her great big armchair. playin her organ durin her free time. her love 4 hot beancurd in e mrngs n slpin w e lites on everynite. she make sure theres always sumtink 4 her grandchildren hu cums over to visit every weekend. cemelan or so we call it. i mish her. i wish she's still ard. i feel lyk i dun appreciate her enough while she's ard. my lost. but u cun xpect much frm a small kid rite? shrug. sigh. in a way, she's e reason y i joined nursing. i wish she's still ard, since nw i understand more n i cud help ard. love, ive come to understand, is more than three words mumbled before bedtime. love is sustained by action, a pattern of devotion in the things we do for each other everyday. surrounded w his tinks 4 tt duration, i feel even more attached 2 him. its lyk ive wen up tt another level. if there's any. was by far e bez. i love e way we didnt haf 2 rush or worry bt havin to b sumwhere at a given time. n i was content enough bein w him. nth else matters. brought my bk along cz i was hopin 2 finish it up bt e onli time i gt e chance to read was weneva he's sleeping or playin his psp. cause tts wen i'd lost him. until he cum back 4rm whereva it was in his head he went wen he's playin e psp. even den,i wud onli last 2 pages e most den ill b back lookin at him instead. i love him soo sooo damn much. he's the best tink tt eva happened 2 me. my everythink. n nw i noe i want to spend e rest of my life w him, even more now tt i noe wt its lyk. reena says a slow eater lives longer. not that i do it on purpose but insya allah. do i eva tink its all enough? does it sound funny 2 u if i sae tt im satisfied w wt i already haf nw. i dun wish to b a staff nurse. i rather b w e pts, n nt all tt paperwork. i plan to stick to bein an EN n work till i reach e highest level an EN can go. by e time wen im old enough, ill reach tt point in life wen money and status isnt everytink n workin is juz so u cud pass ur time. wat m i tokin ni??sigh. i noe im still young n there's so much life gt 4 me bt im contentd w wt i haf nw. i haf a job tt i love, a bf whom i wish to spend my lifetime w. nth else matters. rite? |