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26.12.1987 popular sanguine + peaceful phlegmatic |
i, may be your treasure or the price you ve to pay. may be your why or wherefore within the measure of a day.
you make me feel beautiful. and eveything that i know and don't think i am.
Sunday, April 20, 2008/ 11:24 AM
you make me feel beautiful. and everything that i know and don't think i am.
i mish my boify. haiz. wen i already saw him last sat. '0_o n i tink i mish him tt much, tis few daes, i feel lyk as if he's actualli there w me. lyk lyk he's gone to e toilet or gone to gt his newpaper n tt he'll cum back to me. realli. haf any of u felt tt b4?? den while at work, wen im doin dressin 4 my patient, or feedin any of em, ill haf tis urge to hurry up w wateva im doin cz i want to b w my boify again. i'll tink he's actualli there waitin 4 me at e counters. den wen i finally finish everything tt i haf to do, i'll b damn dissapointed cz no, he's nt there. n den i realize i was juz dreamin. but den, itll happen again n again. n each time i exit e cubicle, ill b feelin & tellin myself e same thing again. he's nt there. im juz dreamin. at home, e same tink too. n i actualli tot i heard him sayin sumtink to me b4 i finally fall aslp yst. realli!! i swear tt was his voice n i tot i saw his face n expression. i heard it loud n clear. "ur knee da tak lawa." ya true. mmg da tak lawa. haiz. i miss him sooo much. i wish i can close my eyes n pray 4 tis to pass. i want to open my eyes n b safely w boify. or already confirmed. my comfort foods no longer gifs me e comfort. ey dun taste tt nice as b4 or gif me tt everything is alrite already feelin anymore. i tink in a way, ey r tryin to tell me to stop takin em. but i wun. nt yet. i hate doors tt arent closed fully. i'll feel tt sumone's lookin in thru tt small space. *shudder* |