all tt were part of my desperate attempts to 4gt e fact tt he'll be in on fri n i wun be seein him 4 e nxt 3 wks. haiz. rite nw anyting tt belongs to him tt im holdin on 2, tt needs returnin back, i feel lyk scribblin my name in bold lettas, pastin our pic, write dwn our fav quotes, anytink, anytink at all to let him always remember bt me. to make my existence linger. 2 let him noe tt i'll b here always. anytink at all. bt i noe, its no use. even if i were to do all tt, he wun be able to bring it all in. plus he'll be too tired n bz w trainings 2 even haf e time to go thru all tt n be reminded of me. e world dun revolve ard u sab. i noe. there's his parents, other family members n friends too. n its nt tt i like cryin in front of him 4 e past daes. e last tink i want is to be seen as 1 nutcase, weak girlfriend. but i cant help it u c. e tears juz cum at e very sound or sight of sumtink tts very significant to me. tt i noe i'll mish soo soo very much. im tryin very hard here. seriously i m. n i can take a million pictures of him, hug him xtra tighter at e end of each dae, try to capture n remember his smell n touch bt by fri, it'll change everything. dun b lyk tis sab. its hard on his part too. its either sooner or later. he still haf 2 go thru it all.