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26.12.1987 popular sanguine + peaceful phlegmatic |
i, may be your treasure or the price you ve to pay. may be your why or wherefore within the measure of a day.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008/ 11:39 AM
and you wouldn't know the difference, or would you?
i wish i cud turn back e time n haf flawless skin like i did back den. den again, sampai bile. i ve big butts, which i tink tts too big sumtimes. too big tts its slowin dwn my movements and make me look lyk im waddlin lyk a duck 4rm e sides. realli!! im proud of my eyes. i love tt quote - eyes r windows to e soul, n e fact tt e fats, e result of my love 4 food does not show tt much on me. therefore, im relieved knowin tt my children wun b tt fat. tts wt e study shows. wt i m during my adolescent may affect how my children'll b lyk. sumtink lyk tt. 4gt where i read tt frm though. i used to be proud of e fact tt i dun cry tt easily. nw, sud i cry b4 bedtime, tts lyk a norm. wen i gt angry at ppl, i dun usually show it. i dunnoe. issit coz ey noe i dun usually gt angry tt easily n even if i did, it wont matter?? of course sumtimes i want it to be known bt wen, and if ever i succeed n they start apologisin, ill feel bad at bein angry at tt person at e 1st place. sumtimes i wonder, y bother feelin tt way wen ey've hurt ur feelings? other ppl can stay angry bout sumtink 4 daes. i rather nt bt lyk tt. its a waste of energy. shrug. fightin, tt too i will neva start. w hueva. loved ones especially. n friends. coz i tink its rude. n e respect i have 4 tt sumone always make me tink twice. den again, it may look lyk its e other way round 4 e other party. tis, most of e time i cant xplain myself. gd intentions are all i haf. hu wud want to do sumtink intentionally if ey noe it will cause hurt n anger to spark. precisely. unless u want tt. n, i love makin ppl happy. again, especially my loved ones. tt feelin u gt wen u see how happy ey r is lyk .... unxplainable. u wud want to make em happy all e time. makin sumone happy makes me happy. so its always others before me. i m independent. wen tt sumtink is suppose to b done by tt sum1 4 me bt its nt done, its ok. i can always do it by myself kan. like if i need or want to go sumwhere n i cun find anyone to accompany me, its ok. i can go alone. all i need is my mp3 n a book n ill b ok. i find comfort in life's simplest pleasure. food, readin in bed, takin long bus rides alone, spendin time w a loved one. material tinks can make a few difference but i dun always haf e need to haf em. if i haf xtras n if i haf a choice to haf tt or other thinks, mayb den i'll gt it. or not, its ok. i'll b ok w wateva i haf. i love surprises. food, i adore chicken n seafood. all kinds of seafood. i m always willing to go anywhere, in singapore tt is, for my fav food. nutcase, i noe. i dun usually take my vegetables wen im outside. but i eat wateva vegetables my mum cook. =0) weird. oh n love cookin!! bt work have made me abit lazy. ya i noe. alasanmu. my idols in life r nt famous ppl. ey r all ppl i had a chance 2 gt 2 noe, once in diff chapters of my life. granted, i noe i have gd qualities. bt i dun regard em as xtraordinarily rare. nor r my bad qualities dire. i consider myself average. love works in miracles everyday. such as destroying reasons. my family, is sum wt conservative. bein able to partially b lyk modern times is considered gd enough. but im thankful bein brought up tis way. i was suppose to haf bf onli afta sec skul, i dun rebel n i try my very best to b wat is xpected of me. n well, of coz everyone's parents r embarrasin. tts e nature of parents ryte? mine, sumtimes i wonder, how ey even fall in love. ey r lyk 2 diff ppl in 2 diff world. my sisters, i love em all. despite e odd facts. and if i never knew you. my everything. i love him more den anyone. all e usual cliches. ey r cliches coz ey r true. without him, nothing would matter. but sumtimes wen i feel a surge of love for him, i wish i always ve e guts to say wats on my mind. instead of allowin e moment to pass me by. and i love my job. despite havin ....... sisters. all of my colleagues made workin so much fun n less stressful. sometimes. y m i writin all tis u might ask? i dunnoe. anw pay dae's comin!! gawd im soooo countin dwn 2 e daes. n wen i gt my pae, im goin to treat myself to all my fav foods. delifrance chix sandwich, lee wee bro otak2, bubbles teas, subway cookies n e list goes on. oh cant wait! hehe |