X marks the spot.
Experience is the best teacher.or so they think. ok i guess it is true, in a way. but i dun tink tt phrase applies 4 me. if realli experience is the best teacher, i wun den b doin the same mistakes again n again, hopin to make it rite tis time round, wud i? but tts e prob itself dun u tink? im too stubborn to noe tt its wrong n tt i sudnt even risk the possibilitites. ive been bruised n broken before.
for starters, tis is me. ask my besties. amal especially. im very sure she had her fair share of tryin to talk me out of even being close sud she ever see a possible candidate hus capable of breakin my heart. she still is doin it nw. rite mal? *winks* but i dun blame her. i love her for that. i'll do e same too sud ever tt were to be her instead. but im sab. i epitomize the word stuborn. full of contradiction, not practisin wat i preach.
u noe, sumtimes i wonder. why dun i juz learn all my lessons all those times before? why dun i spare myself, n my besties, e trouble of pickin me up again n again? cause to tell u e truth, i dun even noe why. i cun put my fingers into it. why i cun juz walk away. why cun i follow my conscious to get down off tis. n i have tis prob of prefer-ing to see the positive side of ppl. its not cause of the tinks tts have happened, or the stuff tt we've done. no, im nt stayin, refusin to budge just because of all tt reasons. (which i noe mal, are all the reasons y i sud stay away.) no, im stayin coz there's just sumtink bt him. him, hus gettin n makin me crazier each dae, n u'd tink i'll listen tis time. no, i dun care. i love u mal, support me on tis pls.
do we keep searchin for wat our heart tells us is rite? n our heart, i think tt sumtimes wat it tells us is right. exaggerated. bcoz it might be unattainable. n therefore, all e more attractive rite? all e more u wud want to make it happen. whateva it is tt ur heart tells u is right, while others tells u its clearly wrg.
n its hard to be sure how far u can noe another person wen u perceive em onli thru e prism of ppl's perception.
p/s: i start my posts with phrase tt are connected to what im about to post. a sinopsis of my post should i say. X marks the spot. *winks*