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26.12.1987 popular sanguine + peaceful phlegmatic |
i, may be your treasure or the price you ve to pay. may be your why or wherefore within the measure of a day.
happy nurses day!
Friday, July 31, 2009/ 11:17 AM
on this dae, i always feel proud to be a nurse.
at the hospital, in a ward, its a battlefield. and there are definitely hierarchies of command. the patients, ey r e ones doin their tour of duty. e doctors breeze in and out lyk conquerin heroes, bt ey need to read ur charts n case notes to remember where ey last left off frm e previous visit. it is e nurses who r e seasoned sgts- e ones hu r there wen ur shakin w such a high fever; ud need to be bathed in ice, e ones hu teach e patient's caregiver hw to feed through the nasal gastric tube n how to turn the patient. e nurses noe e name of family members, e patient's quirks n all. e doctors may be mappping out e war games, but it is e nurses hu make e conflict bearable. u gt to noe em, as ey noe u. its a cliche, bt e reason i became a nurse in e 1st place was bcoz of my late grandma. i ve always wish i understand wt was goin on then so tt i cud be of any help. bt nw, since ive undastood, i wud want to help ppl. n i wonder if wt im doin nw is juz my true nature. helpin ppl. i became a nurse because i wanted to help ppl. bt i sud ve been more specific. i should have named names. sumtimes wen u gt too close to ppl, u gt immuned to em. n u want to be reminded of their presence, ud do anytink to capture it. i remember gettin his colonge, perfume, every scents- rite dwn to which detergent n fabric softener his mum is usin 4 his family. nuts i noe. but once u gt all tis for urself, n each time u catch a whiff of e scent, ull remember him. its lyk as if havin him close to u. n i might nt achieve e same as to hwever he smell lyk bt i was close. coz my mum tot it was unnecessary to be changin e type of fabric softener our family ve been usin. shrug. den it gt hard, cz wen we r no longer 2gether, there r others ard usin it. nw, wen ive gotten over him, n wen mum finally decide to change, every once in a while wen i caught e whiff of e scent, ill b thinkin to myself tt tt scent was once sumtink i was crazy abt. e bottom line, is tt we neva fall 4 ppl we r nt supposed to. cz until tis moment, i had nt realized tt sum1 cud break ur heart twice, along w e very same fault lines. gawd, im such an emotional crack these daes. n im soo tired, im so glad im goin away 4 e wkend. |